Woke up at 5am with aches and pains all over my body, that dammed flu feelin. After a quick shower, I started to shiver and broke out in cold sweat.
I'm like practically "draggin" myself to the stall...head spinnin. Today jus doesnt seems to be my day after all, a few issues screwed up and hv to go for a "spin" somemore hais.
Recently, I kept asking myself time and again whether the CHOICE that I made is right or wrong. I felt so struggling, so lonely...guessed it's the worst feel since last 01-02-08.
50% of my heart is alady elsewhere, far away...and if that remainin % is gone then i guessed it's time to move on
Finally managed to bring myself home, I rushed into the room and sit in a corner to cry...Dad, pls give me the strength to carry on.
Really haf no life makes me felt so lost. I wondered why sm ppl can work and still haf a personal time of their own whereas i'm beginnin to be like a money slave? All i can haf nw is rush to catch a movie (die die mux watch early and ends early or else tml can't wake up), makan dinner near our pl, update accs, resolve issues for the biz, slp n even slp positions haf changed to both backs facin each other. Frankly speakin, i don't enjoy these stuffs at all anymre.
Our lifestyles haf taken a big chng ever since 03-04-09. i felt the distance. Even frm sm of my pals.
Dammned!
